Life changes everything

Tonight, I am so happy to say, I no longer have braces. I must admit my vanity has gotten the better of me because I keep looking at my teeth. Its just so amazing when you see your full teeth for the first time again after almost 2 years of them being covered. Its fun too!

I must say, lots of changes have been going on here in Spain. People have come and gone so quickly, and a small part of me feels a little lonely. Just to know this is a part of life. You can't take everyone with you every where you go no matter how hard you try. If I could I would walk around scooping up people, places, and things so that I will never forget them or lose them.

Its true that memories are the greatest windows into who we are. I look at the things going on here in Spain and realize I am so different than when I came here. I can't explain how the change has manifested itself but its in the small stuff that makes me me. I love it because its like these people, places, and things have marked you. Being a person who needs that little something to bring back the memory, this is perfect. I might not have a huge bag with things I don't want to let go, but I take a little piece home. When before, I would always deny myself that opportunity to protect myself from attachment, which I have learned is just silly!

Attachment comes experience and joy because obviously if you find yourself attached its because you love that moment so much. Why wouldn't you want more of that in your life? It is painful though. I am feeling the effects of that as I have grown to love Granada, the people, and things of my life here. I just dont want to leave. I know I have to. There is a new adventure to embark on, and new moments to mark me. I don't want to deprive myself of that journey, I just wish I could take all the people I have grown to love here and take them with me forever.